Somtimes i feel like...

      Sometimes i feel like a mom even though i'm not, and to be honest, as much as I don't mind helping my sister out with her three kids, its really frusterating sometimes. Especially now that i'm back in school. My neice, McKinsey was born when I was only twelve years old. And even then I would watch McKinsey when I came home from school while my sister was at work. I would have to change diapers and make sure that she was fed, pretty much all the things a mom would have to do, but I was so young. Then four years later my nephew Brayden was born. By this time my sister was married and living on her on. I didn't play quite as much of a role in their life, but still a big part. My sister and her husband both work, so i would get out of school and pick them up from preschool and daycare and keep them until my sister got off of work. Even then I was making sure that they had a snack once we got home, and sometimes cook them dinner, change diapers and help teach them their ABC's and 123's. Then once again four years later, my other nephew was born. His name is Levi. So now, anytime my sister needs to run errands, or someone to pick them up from school, or Levi from daycare, I'm the person that she calls. And a lot of times I might have plans or things that I need to get done that day, but I have to put all that aside and do whatever she needs me to do. You would think that she would be more appreciative of what I have done for her over the years, but she never really has been. I have never once been paid for helping her, or even repayed by a favor when I might need some help with something. I feel like i have been completely taken advantage of for the past ten years.
      As of right now, McKinsey is ten, Brayden is six, and Levi is two. I always make sure that they have a ride home from school, help them with their homework, and get dinner started until my sister gets home to finish cooking. I have always been so close to her kids that they sometimes call me mom on accident. I love them dearly and they definately love me too, but i just think that it's unfair because I made the decision not to have kids until I finished school, but yet I have the responsibilties of a mom because of the decisions that she made. But spending so much time with her kids isn't always a bad thing. We do have fun together, and i've gotten to watch them grow up and become the smart little people that they are today. My neice McKinsey wants to be just like me when she grows up, which warms my heart everytime I hear her say it. And Brayden and I have a lot of things in common too. We like to go fishing together, ride his electric scooter or play Modern Warfare on the X-Box (which is what he likes to do and i pretend). And Levi, even though he is only two, he is so smart, and I love watching him learn new things.
    And at least now when I do think it's time for me to start my own family, I will be fully prepared to be a great mom. I have lots of experience now, which i'm sure will come in handy down the road.